[Chapter 071] Bian Ting’s letter & father PK small aunt
He ignored the car and took Uncle Li’s car together with Lu YunFei. As he prepared to board it, he heard Yuan Shuo call after him, “Jin Jin.”
Bian JinYuan: …
Lu YunFei turned to look at him, “Jin Jin?”
Yuan Shuo had already walked over. He smiled at Lu YunFei, “You must be Xiao Fei. I’m business partners with your father and have heard about you from him. You’re a handsome boy like he said.”
Lu YunFei smiled politely, “Hello uncle.”
“Hello to you too,” Yuan Shuo looked at his son after greeting Lu YunFei, “Are you going to tutor Xiao Fei? Let me send you home after your tutoring session.”
“No need, uncle Li will send me.”
“I also wish to treat you to a meal,” Yuan Shuo said truthfully.
“Not today, Sunday is better.”
Yuan Shuo didn’t argue, and only said, “Okay then.”
He took out his phone and asked Bian JinYuan, “Could you tell me your phone number?”
Bian JinYuan didn’t refuse, and calmly recited his phone number.
Yuan Shuo didn’t bother them after this. He bid them goodbye and went back to his car.
Sensed that something was up, Lu YunFei pulled Bian JinYuan into the car and asked him what was happening.
Bian JinYuan didn’t hide it from him and told him plainly, “He said that he’s my dad.”
Lu YunFei: !!!
“Why would he suddenly appear, where had he been all these while?”
“He didn’t know of my existence before. Now that he suddenly appeared…” Bian JinYuan said to this point, and then slowly gazed at Lu YunFei, “You heard it too just now didn’t you, he’s your father’s business partner. Your father had randomly talked a bit about me to him, that’s how he knew.”
Lu YunFei: …
Lu YunFei thought about that night when his mum told him, “Of course it’s an important partner. Speaking of, the other party is quite handsome. Not only that, he also looks very familiar.”
So it had turned out to be Bian JinYuan’s father… it really was… no wonder his mum found him familiar!
Lu YunFei was dumbfounded for a moment. After a moment of silence, he asked, “Then what do you think about your dad who’s suddenly appeared?”
Bian JinYuan said calmly, “He’s just a passerby.”
“Do you hate him?”
Bian JinYuan shook his head.
“Then do you like him?”
“How is that possible.”
Bian JinYuan looked out the window, “I’m someone who’s scarce with emotions. The majority of people are just passersby to me. You won’t hate a passerby, nor would you like one. Apart from you, my small aunt, and Shuang Shuang, I don’t have any opinions towards anyone else.”
Lu YunFei was surprised, “I’m also included?”
Bian JinYuan looked at him, “Do you feel honoured?”
Lu YunFei nodded, “Very honoured.”
Bian JinYuan smiled and reached out to pinch his face.
The tutoring session went by quickly that night, and Uncle Li sent Bian JinYuan to the train station. Bian JinYuan thanked him and walked home quietly.
The night sky was dark. As he walked on the road, he slowly recalled a letter from a long time ago.
It was a letter that Bian Ting had written and passed to him on her deathbed.
Bian JinYuan had read it numerous times, to the point where he could memorise its contents.
“Xiao Yuan, are you sad because your mum is no longer here? If so, then mum can only apologise to you. Mum also doesn’t want to leave, but it can’t be helped, so please don’t blame mum alright? Everyone will have to depart at a certain point. If they meet sickness or other disasters, they would quicken their pace towards the end.”
“Do you still remember your grandparents? You probably don’t, but you had met them when you were very young, so young that you were still being carried by me. But they had to leave because their time was up. It is now mum’s time to go. After I leave, I can reunite with your grandparents in another world. So, you don’t have to be sad.”
“Xiao Yuan you can’t come over, because your small aunt is still here. If we were to all go over to the other side, Small aunt will be all alone. She would be too pitiful. Small aunt treats you very well, so you could not bear for that to happen to her right? Anyway, mum can’t bear it, so mum hopes for you and small aunt to be live happily together.”
“I still remember when you were just born. You were so small, and you’ve grown so much in a blink of an eye. You once asked me where your dad was when you were younger. Why didn’t our family have a father? I don’t know when but you somehow stopped asking. Now, mum wants to tell you something about your dad, because you’ll never hear about it if I don’t say it now. If you don’t understand the contents, or if you don’t wish to read it, then please store this letter away. You can read it when you’re older or when you meet your father.”
“Xiao Yuan, do you believe in fate? I do. So, if you meet your dad one day, don’t be surprised. Don’t be upset either, and don’t be angry. He doesn’t know of your existence. In this aspect, he’s innocent. When you appeared in my womb, it was at the height of our love, filled with love and warmth. And so, I gave birth to you.”
“You were conceived with love, the same as all the children in the world. I love you, and I love your father too. I don’t know if you’ll ever meet each other someday in this big world, but I hope that if you do, that you would follow your heart. If you wish to get closer to him, then get closer to him. If you wish to keep away from him, then keep away. You belong to yourself. Your life is up to you.”
“Only, this entire situation was built on the foundation of him not wanting to form a family. Your father is someone who cherishes his freedom. He hates restraints, and so he rejected the notion of marriage and families. This was also the reason why we didn’t stay together. I’m an ordinary woman, I want to form a family and have children at a certain age, but he doesn’t think so. His life is rich with wealth and freedom; he’s given a lot leeway in this respect. But I don’t, and so I chose to leave him.”
“If you meet him, and he’s yet to form a family, then you should follow your heart. Make sure that you’re happy whether you grow closer to him or keep away from him. If he already has a family, then you should steer away from him. Your birth was outside of his expectations. It’s irrelevant to him, only to me. Your growth is also irrelevant to him, so he should respect your decision.”
“I love you. In this life, I love you the most in this world. And so I wish for you to always be happy. Small aunt will take care of you after I leave. She is the other person whom I love most apart from you, and so I’ll be at peace leaving you with her. Our relationship is too short in this lifetime. I can’t bear to leave before seeing you grow up, but I can’t help it. The only reprieve is that there are still people whom I trust in this world, so that I can leave you to her.”
“Xiao Yuan, live your life happily, and grow into someone whom you wish to become. This world is a beautiful place for you to savour. My greatest gift to you is to have brought you into this world. Here is a place which presents unending opportunities and dreams, and you will achieve them.”
Bian JinYuan unconsciously halted his steps. He looked up at the starless night sky in the city, and resumed walking forwards.
I’ve met him, he said soundlessly in his heart, but I don’t feel anything for him. Mum, I don’t hate him, nor am I upset. No resentment, and no love. So don’t worry, I’ll settle this situation my way.
He pushed open the door to the yard and entered it. His home was emitting a warm light.
Bian JinYuan had never regretted having been born in this world. He had never harboured such feelings even during the hardships his family had gone through. This world was the greatest gift that Bian Ting had given him. She had brought him into this world and given him all of her love. He lived among love and dreams. Even after she had departed, Bian Jie had continued to light up his world, never ceasing this light.
And so he didn’t hate or resent Yuan Shuo, and he also didn’t feel like he needed Yuan Shuo in his life. He lived completely, possessing familial, friendly, and romantic relationships. He didn’t want for anything else.
However, Yuan Shuo was different, he needed him.
At the appointed Sunday, Yuan Shuo entered the yard of Bian JinYuan’s house, following him through the door. He looked at the cramped house in shock, an overwhelming pang of heartbreak at the sight.
Bian Jie had already made a meal. Shuang Shuang had also been sent to a friend’s house. Bian Jie said, “Sit.”
Yuan Shuo looked at her face that was strikingly similar to Bian Ting’s. In that moment, he felt a revelation.
He seemed to have seen a young Bian Ting in her, yet also seemed to see a middle-aged Bian Ting as well. But he knew that the person in front of him wasn’t the girl he liked, but her younger sister, the one whom she often talked about—Bian Jie.
Yuan Shuo sat on the sofa, and Bian Jie and Bian JinYuan moved two stools over to sit in front of him.
Yuan Shuo was about to speak when he heard Bian Jie say, “I’ve heard about you from Xiao Yuan. But I want to clarify something with you, can I?”
Yuan Shuo answered naturally, “Sure.”
Bian Jie didn’t beat around the bush, “May I know if mister Yuan is married?”
Yuan Shuo hadn’t expected her to be so direct. He was momentarily stunned, and then answered truthfully, “Not yet.”
Being single at his age was uncommon. However, Bian JinYuan and Bian Jie had heard about his resistance towards marriage from Bian Ting, and so they nodded in acknowledgement.
“Mister Yuan is still the same as when you were young, disliking restraints. Not being married at this age, Mister Yuan is probably living freely, right?”
Bian JinYuan glanced at his small aunt, now understanding why she wanted to meet his cheap father. He hadn’t thought that, for all that his small aunt was sweet and gentle, that she would be able to say such barbed words.
Yuan Shuo naturally was able to detect what even Bian JinYuan could see. He recalled what Bian Ting had said, that she and her younger sister were very close. He smiled and replied amiably, “I am so, but not that freely.”
“Then does mister Yuan plan to get married?”
“We’ll see in the future.”
Bian Jie scoffed, “Mister Yuan is really banking on there being many days in the future. When probed on marriage in your youth, you left it to the future, as there was no hurry. Now that you’re middle-aged, mister Yuan continues to push the matter of marriage to the future. Mister Yuan’s future is so difficult to wait for. It’s a good thing that my sister left early, otherwise I’m afraid that she would be waiting until her death, and still never hear a word from mister Yuan about marriage.”
Yuan Shuo raised his head sharply, as he glared fiercely at Bian Jie.
Bian Jie didn’t seem to notice his anger. She looked at Yuan Shuo, her eyes filled with resentment and disdain. She knew about Bian Ting and Yuan Shuo’s relationship better than Bian JinYuan, and knew how much Bian Ting suffered in order to take care of Bian JinYuan. As Bian Ting’s younger sister, she stood by Bian Ting’s side unconditionally, and so in her heart, Yuan Shuo had long ago been marked as scum. It wouldn’t matter if Yuan Shuo had never appeared before them. Now that he had, she wasn’t going to be polite to him.
Bian JinYuan looked at the two people before him, and poured a drink for Bian Jie, “Small aunt, drink something.”
Then, he placed the jug back and reminded the man sitting opposite him, “Retract your gaze. If you aren’t able to speak properly to my small aunt, then you can scram.”
Yuan Shuo: ????
Yuan Shuo looked at his son in shock. Was it him who didn’t want to talk properly? It was obviously the other party who didn’t want to talk properly. He was innocent!
So much feels this chapter 🙁